Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

out the damn truth.

“What about my relationship with Ethan?” I ask her, maybe she could shed more light on

that.

She answers with a question of her own. “What has Rowan told you?”

Shrugging my shoulders, I reply. “Nothing much. Just that I was seeing him during the time

he was courting Emma… I can’t help but wonder, though; I know myself. At least my

current self, and I know! would never have slept with another man if I at least didn’t feel

something strong for him.”

Letty stares at me for a long time before answering.

“You were highly attracted to him, but apart from that, you were falling for him. You once

told me that you felt really strongly for him and that you could actually imagine a future

with him. That you could see yourself building a life with him and loving him”

Color me shocked. Shit. Was she honestly telling the truth? Was I really falling for some

other man? I always thought that Rowan was it for me. I never considered other men

because he was embedded deep in my soul. I thought I would never fall out of love with

him, even if he went back to Emma.

To find out that this almost happened leaves me feeling some type of way.

I look up at her with unfocused eyes.

“And what happened to Ethan? Why isn’t he around? If I were falling in love with him, why

am I now with Rowan? I don’t understand.” I stammer, firing question after question at

her.

She goes to answer, but a cold and deadly voice stops her.

“That’s F***ing enough Letty”

I swivel around in my chair, and my eyes collide with the gray, angry ones belonging to

Rowan.

I normally wouldn’t mind the k*ss, but something about it seemed different. It was full of

anger and

e he was trying bitterness. It was punishing and bruising. Almost as if he was trying to

stake his claim. Like to erase Ethan’s name from my l*ps. 1

I stand stock still, refusing to k*ss him back. I wanted answers, and he’d cut off Letty

before she could tell

me where Ethan was.

When he notices that I’m not responding to his k*ss, he stops and steps back. The anger is

still raging in his eyes, but that doesn’t faze me at all. Not when I was desperate to know

what happened to the man that I’d apparently been falling for. The man who had achieved

what I’d thought was impossible. Taking

me away from Rowan.

“I want answers, Rowan, and I want them now,” I demand, folding my hand across my

chest. “Tell me

where Ethan is.”

The storm that was brewing behind his stormy grey eyes becomes almost chaotic.

“I don’t want to hear his F***ing name,” he growls, his fist clenched. “I told you what’s

important, and

that’s all you need to know about him. You don’t need to know where he is.”

His answer ignites a fire inside me. I mean, how F***ing dare he? This is the father of my

talking about, and he has the audacity to tell me he isn’t going to tell me more about him?

child we are

“He’s Iris’s father, and I deserve to know who he is and where he is. This isn’t something

I’m going to budge on, whether you like it or not.” I hiss at him as I stub my finger in his

chest just to get my point

across.

“No!” His tone is hard, and it reminds me of the Rowan I was used to. “That’s final”

“Maybe you should just tell her.” Letty comes to my aid, and those deadly eyes turn to

her.

“Don’t tell me what to F***ing do,” he snarls, his voice dripping with annoyance. “Now get

the hell out of

my compound.”

His attitude towards her enrages me. I’d become so complacent because of his new

change that I’d

forgotten how much of an asshole Rowan could be.

I yell at him. feeling even more pissed off. “Don’t talk to my friend like that.”

You barely F***ing know her,” he sneers, and I can’t help but feel that he’s somehow

mocking me.

My heart breaks at being reminded that I couldn’t even remember my best friend because

of my head injury. Something that is beyond my control.

“You’re an asshole, but I shouldn’t be surprised because you’ve always been one towards

me.” uttering this, I grab Letty’s hand and the baby monitor, then drag her across the

lawn and into the house.

I can’t believe I let my guard around him. I should have known that everything with him

was too good to

be true.

“Look, I’m going to go, but I’ll come back another day.” Letty begins. “I didn’t mean to

cause any

between you two.”

trouble

I release the air I was holding and just sag in defeat. “It isn’t your fault. I just don’t

understand why he’s

acting this way.

She looks at me like I’m joking. “Are you kidding me? Don’t you see why he won’t tell you

where Ethan is

or why he doesn’t want you to speak his name?”

I shake my head because it doesn’t make any sense to me at all. Ethan is a part of my life

because of Iris. There is no way I would cut him out of his daughter’s life unless he himself

didn’t want to be part of it.

“It’s because he’s jealous,” she finally says. “It’s obvious to everyone except you. He

doesn’t want you

around Ethan because he is F***ing jealous.”

I almost laugh, but then remember the night he’d told me the same thing. I hadn’t

believed him, but could

it actually be true?

Before I can say anything to her, like maybe tell her she was wrong Iris chooses that time

to start wailing.

“Go, she needs you more. I’ll let myself out, and maybe one of these days we can arrange

a girl’s day out

with Corrine,” she says, giving me a smile.

“Alright then,” I sigh tiredly, feeling bad that I didn’t manage to make her stay longer, not

that she event

I

gave me the chance to convince her.

She hugs me, and I head upstairs. I hear the door open and close right before I enter Iris’s

room.

Picking her up from the cot, I k*ss her cheek and then take her to the changing table. Her

diaper wasn’t

wet, so it meant she was probably hungry.