I Started To Gain Sentience In An Eroge-Novel

I think many of you probably have guessed it correctly. After all, the plot is clear as night and day. Although I can not see or hear or even feel you, my hunch is that you all know the girls' personalities are built upon the settings of this world, masked as the main storyline.

Let us discuss that in detail.

The creator of this world takes a familiar rom-com trope and puts as much pain as possible. Why, you ask? There is only one reason for it, honestly. That is to turn the respective heroine into a psychopathic yandere who thinks of nothing except sex and violence. All that suffering is created for only one purpose: character depth and for viewers to see.

And it works.

By the gods, does it work...

For example, Rachel was a girl with an unrequited love for more than ten years. Ever since she was a little girl, she has thought of the day she would finally dawn a white dress while holding a beautiful bouquet of orange-her favorite color. Each day of her life was devoted to the higher cause of getting married into Han's family without much thinking to herself. In her mind, happiness was to become one with her childhood friend.

Rachel is interested in me now, so that is certainly not the case anymore, but it used to be the only reason for her to wake up and live. I do not think there is a need to say her settings were that of a violent girl with no empathy for others.

Of course, I also mentioned many times about her feats, showing you how she was also very sexually aggressive and did not care what kind of pain she would inflict on others who stood in her way. The reason for that is precisely because of her background as a childhood friend. In order to be with her love for the rest of her life, anything and everything in Rachel's aquamarine eyes is irrelevant. Thus, she became a tyrant who would decimate all obstacles no matter the cost.

Her type, or in this case, her event, can be considered psychological.

Compared to blondy, Laura had yet the chance to develop into a full-fledged yandere. That said, it did not mean she was not one. In fact, the class rep tried to kill Rachel many times when they confronted each other after she was saved by Han from the hands of the school bullies. Her actions were similar to our Rachel, with all the knife and stabbing.

However, there was a difference between the two. Rather than trying to murder a rival, I would say Laura's reasonings were closer to that of protection than possession. She perhaps wanted to save the protagonist from a dangerous individual, whom she saw the true nature. Of course, due to her not being one of the main heroines, Laura eventually died while being tortured by Rachel in one of the most creative ways possible: forced to chew and swallow the weapon she used on her enemy.

In her case, it is more physical than psychological, though I can not deny the psychological aspect of it.

Also, I have no doubt Laura is either hiding or she is in the process of becoming a yandere. For obvious reasons, I would love it to be the first case. This may seem illogical, but a yandere who is good at hiding is also a yandere who can keep her emotions in check. In addition, a yandere like so means she will not suddenly turn violent and murder everyone on the spot. She may pose a threat to many other girls because of that reason alone, but for someone who she loves dearly, me, she is indeed very welcome.

My lesson for the day to you guys: A stable yandere is a bangable yandere.

Ahem! Sidetracked again.

In short, pain is the theme of I Will Survive With A Harem Ending. Does not matter what kind, be it physical or psychological. As long as there is pain, the characteristics of the girls are justified. They become monsters under the influence of the system. Actually, even the main character can not escape that pain. It has been proved countless times already by all of Han's deaths.

"Sigh..."

I hate this world so much...

Near the windows, close to Rachel's location, there sits a girl with black hair, diligently noting down all the rubbish writings on the board. Kurokawa is so elegant no matter what she is trying to do. How she holds her pen while gently pushing the tip or when she is using the eraser and then slowly gathers the crumbs into her hands, making virtually no sound at all, is simply stunning beyond words.

It is as if I were looking at a life-like painting. It matters not the number of times I spend looking at her since the first thing I would say is wow.

Our bookworm possesses what people would call an elegant traditional beauty. Silky long black hair, a slender body, and voluptuous breasts, her looks rival that of Rachel and Laura. It goes without saying she is worthy of the title of a heroine.

Even more so, her soft nature with the hidden traits of a masochist has created many scenes where the protagonist would do...nasty things to her. I do not want to be rude to her by saying this, but she was like a fetish pool the author created to satisfy their pervertedness.

And that is also where the system puts the pain on Kurokawa. As one of the main targets, she must suffer to build up character.

Unlike Rachel and Laura, Kurokawa's pain was both psychological and physical. I desperately want to save her from that event.

Even if that means she will hate me for it, I will stop it from happening. This time, I should be able to do it. With the precedence of Rachel and Laura, it should be possible. If blondy and our class rep could achieve their freedom from the plot, Kurokawa should be able to have it, too. It is only fair to give her that chance. I personally will not give up after putting up a fight with the system this time. That is my resolve.

Now that Kurokawa is not fond of Han that much anymore, it is up to me to pull her out of her misery. Sadly, I do not think I can ever give her the affection she needs most. Both of my arms are tied to two girls already. Since I am no Han, I doubt I am able to handle more than those girls. Merely maintaining the balance of one immovable wall, namely Laura, and one unstoppable force, Rachel, is too much for my feeble mind. Any more than that, and I will be dead at the end of the week. Perhaps dried up after too much snu snu or worse. Still, dying from snu snu seems...favorable, to say the least...

Just kidding, though. As if something like that is going to happen with those two. Like an achievement, I am counting how many days I can be with Laura and Rachel without being stabbed to death. Being able to wake up tomorrow is already a blessing of its own.

At the beginning of the protagonist and Kurokawa's route, the bookworm hardly exhibited signs of a masochist. Not until after her event did that part of her start to show. It triggered a switch in her head. Deep within Kurokawa was a pain more than anything she could ever feel. Sadly, the only way for her to relieve that pain was to suffer in another way. The bookworm desperately looked for a way to lessen the burden she had in her chest.

That was when she found out self-harming was a way to keep her mind sane.

The bookworm felt indebted to Han and would try to make it up to him in any way she could. Slowly, Kurokawa would ask her boyfriend to increase the intensity of the 'so-called treatments' until he killed her in one of their intercourses. If you guess that is it, I have worse news.

When the pleasure of sex was at its peak, Kurokawa asked Han to choke her neck. Being a pushover, Han hesitated but complied with that request anyway.

That turned out to be a horrible decision...

In such a situation, I suppose people would use a method to signal a stopping point. Asphyxiation is stimulating, no doubt about that, but not so good you should die from it. Unfortunately, Han did not know as much as I do now. The protagonist did not know when to stop or what to ask. And as Kurokawa continued to experience immense pleasure from being strangled, neither did she.

She wanted it to happen.

She died at the hands of her most favorite person in this world, a way for her to atone for her wrongdoings.

I still remember Kurokawa mustered an apology before passing out for good.

Seeing her state, Han was perplexed, to say the least.

Because the apology was: "I'm sorry, Mother."

Kurokawa, in her event, would murder her mother, which would haunt her for the rest of her days. Unable to live with guilt, she chose the suicide method. The protagonist was her preferred person.

I already know the ending. The only thing to do now is how to prevent it from happening.