Love Worth Fighting For

248 Destroyed

There are countless times Christian massaging his forehead which hurts for no reason, even though this morning he had talked at length with his father but the anxiety still didn’t want to leave him at this time. The disturbing feeling that was bothering him so tormented him.

“After the exhibition in Paris, I will take Asher to...” Suri, who was reporting her work to Christian, stopped her words when she realized that her brother was not focusing on her.

Suri quickly put the paper in her hand on the table and immediately grabbed Christian’s hand which was already so cold and wet with sweat. “Are you sick, Christ? You’re so cold.”

Christian slowly raises his face, looking at Suri who looks so worried. “I’m fine.”

“No, you’re not doing well. I’m not a kid you can fool, Christ!”

Christian smiles a little, the fake smile he’s been showing so many people for the past eight months. “Look at me, I’m fine, aren’t I?”

“Christ,” Suri sighed worriedly. “What’s bothering you right now? Are you thinking about Elena again?”

Christian’s face immediately changed when he heard Elena’s name come out of Suri’s thin lips.

“Am I right?”

.....

Christian immediately pulls his hand from Suri’s grip, he tries to avoid eye contact with Suri who is waiting for his answer expectantly.

“I feel like Elena is near me, Suri,” Christian says quietly, finally speaking the truth. “I also don’t know why I can think like this, it’s just that I feel that Elena is currently around me.”

Suri bit her lower lip hard, trying to calm herself. Even though she has prepared herself, in fact she is not ready to admit all her mistakes to Christian. Suri still doesn’t have that much courage to confess to her brother.

“Wouldn’t it be great if Elena showed up, this is what you expected, right?”

Christian shakes his head slowly. “I’m afraid Suri, I’m afraid if Elena’s purpose in coming is to take Luna away from me.”

“Elena wouldn’t have done that, especially if she knew Luna needed special treatment from a doctor. Elena wasn’t that stupid.” Suri spoke again, letting out what was in her head at the moment.

Christian takes a deep breath. He knows that he is currently suffering from excessive fear, Luna’s improving condition makes Christian have great enthusiasm and confidence in his daughter’s recovery. That’s why he was afraid that Elena would come and mess up all of Luna’s healing process. For Christian, his little baby who is never separated from the breathing apparatus is his world. He was willing to give everything he had for his beautiful baby.

Seeing Christian silent makes Suri nervous, without thinking Suri gets up from her seat and goes straight to Christian who is locking his lips tightly.

“Christ,” said Suri softly. “Everything will be fine, everything will return to normal as usual. Luna will also recover soon, as soon as she gets a suitable donor then the operation can be done. You don’t have to think anything wrong, put all your worries away. worried us all, Christ.”

Christian winks at Suri who is kneeling in front of him.

“Luna will be fine.” Christian stammered repeating Suri’s words, from the many words that came out of Suri’s lips, only three were left in his head.

Suri nodded slowly. “Yes, Luna will be fine. My beautiful niece will soon be able to enjoy her freedom from those damn needles and hoses. She will be running around the park like a child her age happily, Christ.”

Christian’s eyes lit up hearing Suri’s words, even though what Suri said had not happened yet Christian looked so happy. Always seeing Luna in patient clothes makes Christian very impatient to see Luna run around like children her age, Christian’s tears fall without realizing it. And Suri who saw it immediately wiped it with her fingers, Christian who was so hard and cold was always fragile when it came to Luna and that made Suri feel even more guilty.

“You can’t cry, Christ,” Suri stammered. “Where did the very annoying Christian Clarke and the caretaker go? Where did my selfish brother go? Come on Christ, come back like the Christian I know. Don’t torture yourself like this.”

Christian smiles. “I’m getting punishment from God, Suri.”

“Christ!”

“I was right, Suri,” Christian adds back. “At that time, the night I got Elena completely I said I was willing to get punishment from God if I betrayed her.”

Suri shook her head with teary eyes. “You didn’t betray her, Christ.”

“No Suri, I have betrayed her. Betrayed the trust and love she gave me and betrayed our sacred promise.”

“Christ...”

“And here I am right now, guilt-ridden on Elena every night,” Christian says with quivering lips. “I always dreamed of Elena who was always crying in the villa, dreamed of Elena who was so tormented through her pregnancy, dreamed of Elena who was lamenting the cruelty she shouldn’t have received.”

“You still see the CCTV footage at the villa?” asked Suri half shouting. “Didn’t you promise Mommy and Daddy not to see CCTV...”

“I didn’t see the tape, Suri.” Christian cuts off Suri’s words in a barely audible voice. “But all those tapes kept playing in my head every night.”

Suri tightens her grip on Christian’s fingers which she already holds tightly.

“God is really torturing me, Suri. God is repaying all my unfair treatment to Elena in a way...”

Suri who couldn’t stand hearing all of that immediately got up and hugged Christian’s body tightly without shame, if someone else saw them they would definitely would have thought that the two of them weren’t siblings with what Suri had just done to Christian.

“Don’t talk like that again, Christ. God can’t possibly punish His servant, God is good, Christ,” said Suri sobbing, seeing and hearing firsthand how Christian regretted all his evil deeds to Elena one year ago making Suri’s chest squeezed when she this. Christian is absolutely devastated.

Without Christian and Suri knowing, at the door Charlotte was already listening to their conversation. Charlotte, who initially wanted to take Christian to lunch, then canceled her intention when she heard Suri and Christian’s conversation was so serious. For the first time Charlotte hears Elena’s name being called many times by Suri and Christian.

“Elena... what does your face look like?” mumbled Charlotte quietly. “Why would a Christian Clarke be so infatuated with you. Apart from that sick baby, what magic spell have you cast on Christian to make Christian so attached to you like this?”