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Smething we can agree upon." He pulled out ofand turnedaround.

he laid down on his back and guilded my head on his chest and began playing with my hair, something I noticed

he did a lot. | liked to think it was because he simply wanted to touchor it made him calm to do so, it

certainly made feel calm. Cuddling was fast becoming a favorite of mine, it wasn't something | had had the

pleasure of before but | could now tell how touch deprived | had been.

"Tellsomething about yourself that you haven't told anyone before?" He whispered, it wasn't really an order.

It was more like a request or wish.

"Uumm," | hummed.

I had to wrack my brain to find something to share with him, there was one thing that cto mind and it has

been something | have been too afraid to say out loud before. Like it would come

true if | did.

"l used to be scared that | wouldn't be able to fall in love." His hand in my hair froze. Chapter 125:

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"What made you think you wouldn't be able to?" | shrugged.

"I had never had it before, | have had plenty of boy friends, as | have friends who were boys but | never had any

romantic feelings for them even if they might have felt something towards me. After over syears, | had to

start wondering if there was something wrong with me. Not that being aromatic is wrong, it is just not what |

want to be."

It had frightenedwhen | first suspected that might be the case, being aromatic seemed so lonely. The

thought of not being able to connect with someone on such a deep level was heartbreaking. | had always wanted

to share my life with someone in the sway my parents did, the glow in their eyes when they looked at each

other. The way they knew each other as well and the didn't even need to talk to understand what the other

person was thinking. The soft goodbye kisses on their way to work and the happy hello kisses when they get

back. The smiles of love and the gentle squeeze on the shoulder, | wanted it all and | had been terrified |

wouldn't have that.

would

"You said, you used to be scared, are you still scared now?" he asked, bringingback to the present, back to

us. "No," | replied honestly. | anymore."

"l am not scared a

| am not scared anymore because these men madefeel like | was more than able to lose someone like that if

| let myself. Somehow, that knowledge was almost scarier, it took a lot of strength and courage to hand over

your heart to someone else especially when you didn't know if they felt something for you in return. And

"And why is that?" His chest stopped moving like he was holding his breath and his heart that had calmed down

from our earlier exertion sped up again.

| opened my mouth to respond, though I had no idea what to say. It wasn't like | was tough enough to admit my

feelings to them, only to be interrupted by my phone. | was saved by the ringing tone.

"One second." | said and reached for my phone.

With a sigh, | saw that it was from work. Accepting the call, | put the phone to my ear. "Hello?"

"Hi, Angelia. It is Nkay, | am calling to see if you will be able to cover Andy's morning shift, he won't be able to

cin today." She said, straight to the point as she always was.

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Looking at the screen, | saw it was still early, no wonder | was so tired when Riccardo worked me

up.

"Sure," | replied reluctantly.

The last thing | wanted to do was work when | was supposed to get the weekend off but | always had problems

saying no to work.

"I might be a little late but | will be there as soon as | can."

"That is fine, | am sure Ben can manage for a while. | will let him know, thank you." She said warmly and hung

up.

"Work?" Riccardo asked as | hung up.

"Yes," | affirmed with another sign.

"Then, you should get ready." He nodded, looking disappointed but understanding.

"There are clothes for you

in the dresser, | will go

sser, | will go make sbreakfast for us."

My whole body protested against leaving the bed but it still had to be done. After a quick shower, | picked out

underwear and a pair of jeans. At the last second, | grabbed one of his shirts because the baggy ones were much

more comfortable than anything else at my disposal. Besides, | loved being surrounded by his warm and sp**y

scent. It madefeel good. He looked pleased at my choice of clothing when he saw me, his eyes heated and

he took a step towardsbefore stopping. | could tell he was holding himself back, knowing we didn't have

tto start anything and | cursed the fact that | had to go to work.

| wanted to jump back into the bed with him and have my wicked way with him, it didn't even have to be a bed,

it could be on the couch. Or the kitchen table or the floor or even against the wall. Luckily, | would see him again

today and the other two as well. We ate breakfast in a hurry and drove to his house to get my uniform. | stayed

silent throughout the entire ride, saving the

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energy

I knew

| would need when working with Ben. To say | was dreading it would be putting it

mildly. He droppedoff with a kiss that made my lips swollen and tingly and leftbreathless by the end is it.

Walking into the cafe twenty minutes later than my usual time, | was less than surprised to see the place was in

no way ready for opening which would be in five minutes. While we always made sure the cafe was tidy for the

next day, we usually had a few things to take care of before we could let my customers inside. One second in, he

was already pi**ngoff. This was one of the many reasons Andy and | hated

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working with this guy, he was lazy and never did any actual work.

| am sure Ben can manage for a while." Nkay has too much misplaced trust in him.

Ben lounged on a chair with his head bent down, looking at his phone. | didn't even need to see the screen to

know he was playing one of the many games he had on his phone, his brows highlighted hair flopped onto his

face hiding his most likely bored expression. He looked up at the sound of the door closing and | suppressed a

sigh. It was bad enough that | would be working with him, I didn't want to fight on to that by complaining over

his lack of work ethic. It wouldn't change anything either way, | had already tried. His heavily disproportionate

lips stretched into a smile, the bottom one was full and kind of pushed to be honest while his upper lip was so

thin, | couldn't even see it. If he didn't have the worst attitude, he might have been pretty. | guess, maybe, |

couldn't really tell. | was biased. Speople were beautiful not because of their looks but because of who they

were on the inside and others well, their shitty personality overshadowed their appearance and all we could see

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