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Chapter 174: Feeling LonesChapter 174: Feeling LonesAngel

When the morning light first streamed in my window, my body felt slightly lighter, though my eyes only fell

heavier. In a couple of hours, | had been awake for twenty-four hours. At my age, | really didn't handle it as well

as | did when | was a little girl. In the early morning, | did sgoogling to find out which stuff | should buy, |

had settled on multiple things, and | know it would drain my savings, but it would be worth it to feel safe. |

waited until ten o'clock before | felt comfortable to leave my room. At this time, it would be bright outside and

the street would be busy, givinga safety blanket. No one would dare to do anything towith so many

witnesses, at least, that was what | prayed on. Before | went, | | armed myself with my trusted self-defense

equipment. | also stuffed the bear back inside the box so | could throw it in the garage container on my way and

put the note in the envelope with the pictures. As soon as | exited my building, | took a deep breath. Being

outside in in broad daylight helped makefeel better about going alone. There was something about light that

gavea sense of security. It actually felt good being outside. | think | was more scared of being stuck in an

apartment than being outside with pep, especially after finding out that someone had gotten inside my

apartment without leaving marks. Though, remembering that | had been done, it followed in the daytwhen |

talked to Marshall and the next day to Riccardo, and when | left the police station. | didn't feel completely safe

out here either.

Heading to the bus stop, | took a bus to the nearest best buy store. After | arrived at the store, | browsed, trying

to find the thing | had seen on the internet. | didn't hurry as | took my tfeeling safer than | would have at

home. An hour later, | walked out with an entry alarm sensor as well as two cameras. Afterward, | swung by

another store to buy a portable door lock which made it practically impossible for someone to break in through

the door while it was attached. As | neared my building, | grabbed my phone and called my mother. My nerves

were still fired, and | couldn't go inside my apartment without having someone on the other side talking to me,

like a metaphorical hand to hold. She didn't need to know why | was calling her, but it would makefeel

calmer knowing someone was aware ofin case, there actually was someone in my apartment. | could rest a

bit easily when | had set up the cameras and motion sensor since | would know if someone was inside or not. But

right now, | was going on blind. "Hi, mother." | tried sounding cherry on the phone, because she could pick up the

slight distress in my voice. How was it that parents always knew when something was wrong?

"Honey, what is

what is going on? Are you okay?" Her warm voice filtered through the phone, settling my nerves a little.

"Yes, | am good."

"Why wouldn't lied.

"You tell me, you

ou don't sound good." She said, seeming suspicious.

She could always see right throughor in this case, hear when | had something | was trying to hide.

"I don't know what you wantto say, | am fine." | locked myself into the building and went to my mailbox.

"Is it about that boyfriend of yours?" She continued, dismissing my lie.

Once when | slept over at Kingston's place, my phone rang while | was in the bathroom. As a joke, | had told him

to answer it, knowing he wouldn't because of his aversion to talking. It turned out, the joke was oninstead

because not only had he answered it, it also turned out that it was my mother on the phone and not Andy like |

had thought. When | had gotten the phone back, | had learned he had introduced himself as my boyfriend rather

than my dominant. And | was grateful because that was stuff my parents didn't have to know about. They don't

need to know | am into a bdsm lifestyle. Stuffing my mail inside my bag, | started walking up the stairs.

"L...we were taking a break." | finally admitted, knowing she wouldn't give up until | gave her something. My

pulse rose as | neared the

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third floor, but it helped to have my mother on the phone.

"What happened?" | could literally hear her disappointment.

| had never had a boyfriend before and while Kingston hadn't been mine, my mother thought so. She had

probably also thought that since

I had waited so long to get one, then it meant that he was special. That maybe he had been the one for me, if

only she knew.

"I just think we went too far, you know?" | steeled myself as | unlocked my apartment door and took hesitant

steps inside.

"It bectoo serious too quickly, and | have never been in a relationship before." My eyes scanned every nook

and cranny of my room.

"I just need to take a step back, it was too much to adjust to at once."

It was a lie, but at the stime, it felt a little true. We had been going too fast and got too serious too quickly.

And when it all ccrashing down around us, we hadn't taken the tto build a strong enough foundation.

Something that could only be built with time, | checked inside the bathroom, in my closet, and everywhere. My

tense shoulders relaxed when | saw that it was safe.

"I get that, sweetie. It was the swith your father." She said, my hand stilled just as | was about to lock the

door with the new portable door locks.

It was? | didn't know that." She chuckled

"You did know that we got married within a year of us meeting. That wouldn't have happened if things hadn't

becso serious fast."

That was true, but | had never thought of it that way. | hadn't thought about how quickly it had happened

because they were clearly meant to be together. My mother and father were one of those disgustingly cute

couples who still danced whenever their song con the raa and always touched each other as if they

couldn't stand to have ant space between them.

"Sometimes, tis irrelevant. You can't put ton love or feeling in general. They happen when they happen.

It is not something you can control. And | know it can be scary, but you will never know if it is worth it if you

don't stick it out and see." "You are right." | said, finally twisting the key and fitting the handle of the portable

door lock into place.

"But, this is new for me, mother. | need a break to see what | want more clearly. There were so many strong

emotions and | couldn't think properly while | was with him."

"I understand, you do whatever is good for you, and only you know what that is."

will, how is father doing? Is his ankle any better?"

My father had broken his ankle a few weeks ago and had been a little stir-crazy, having to take it easy. He didn't

do very well, because of being constantly at hand unable to do much. She sighed.

"He is still heading, the doctor thinks he will have to wear the cast for three more weeks, if not more. You know

how he is, he just can't sit still." | outright laughed at that, knowing my father all too well.

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"I have never..." .." | stopped myself from saying | had never met someone as restless as he was, but that wasn't

true. | think my men could give him a run for his money. "Yes, he is a restless man. What is he doing to keep

busy?"

"Crosswords, movies, books and games. Basically, whatever can put his mind to use."

She askedabout school and | failed to inform her, more like keeping it from her that | hadn't been to school

this past week. We continued to talk for about an hour. It felt good. | hadn't been able to speak to her much since

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When we finished our conversation, | felt more alone than | had ever felt. | tried to keep busy, going over the

notes Marshall had sentfor his class and installing the cameras and alarm sensor. Still, no matter what | did,

the lonesfeeling wouldn't disappear. Chapter Comments Dianne Rundle

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