My Hot Alpha

Chpater 182 Swallowing the lump in my throat I tried to stop my heart from racing.

"Give us a minute?". He asked.

The girls scrambled, running like little girls.

"Take a walk with me?". He offered his hand.

"You asking or telling". I still couldn't bring myself to look at him. I was shaking inside with nerves and yeah maybe a little excitement.

I hadn't seen him in a month. It may not seem like a long tbut toit felt like a lifetime.

"Con baby, look at me".

So I did. Our eyes locked, my hand on its own slipping into his. Instantly I felt it, our connection. The feeling of belonging.

I missed him.

He ledthrough the club, through the back area stopping at a door. Punching in a code I heard a click before he pushed the door open.

I had never been in here before.

"You want something to drink?". He asked closing the door once we were both inside.

"Vodka soda". I walked further into the room taking in my surroundings. A black leather sofa was pushed up against the back wall. A small kitchen area with a sink, a coffee machine and a fridge freezer. Nothing big, nothing special but we were after all in the back of a club.

"Ice?".

"Please".

He passedmy drink which I gladly took. "You want to sit down?".

I couldn't seem to settle my nerves. I didn't know how to act around him. We weren't exactly on good terms before he left.

"No I'm okay". I took a sip of my drink making a face at how strong it was. "How much vodka did you put in there?".

A laugh fell from his lips. "To strong for you queenie?".

Queenie? He had never calledthat before.

"Just a bit".

"You want a beer instead?".

"What's going on Jake?". I sat my drink aside. "You up and left without a single word. Now you're back and you're acting as if nothings happened".

A sigh fell from his lips as he ran a hand through his hair. "I had to sort myself out baby. I was no good for you before".

"And now?".

"It'll be different I promise. I had stto think, I'm not the same".

"You toldto go to Yale, toldI'd be doing you a favour. Do you not want me?".

"I was angry, pissed off. I took it out on you, I didn't mean what I said".

"And I've just to believe you?". I asked. "Do you know how many times I cried myself to sleep?".

"Babe-....

"You leftfour days before we were supposed to mate. How do you-...".

"I fucking had too". He snapped.

Ah there he was. Good old Jake and his temper.

"Dammit Leah". He growled teeth clenched. "I left for us. I couldn't be around you when I was angry all the time. I kept fucking things up, I treated you badly. I had to ground myself, sort my head out. I had to be better for you".

"A whole month Jake and nothing. Not a phone call not even a text. I thought you weren't coming back". He closed the distance between us and my weak self let him.

As he wrappedup in his arm a sigh fell from my lips as my head fell against his chest. I didn't want to argue with him anymore, it was exhausting.

What happened happened and I couldn't change it. We had to move on and focus on now. He was back and if I'm honest it felt like a weight had been lifted, felt like I could breath again.

"I was always coming back Leah". He kissed the top of my head as his arms tightened. "You are still mine baby, you'll always be mine".

"No more games Jake, no more secrets. You tellwhat's going on within the pack, you keepin the loop. I'm not an outsider, I'm your equal. Share things with me, tellnot only the good but the bad. I'll support you with everything but you need to communicate with me".

"You know-...".

"I'm not done". I interrupted. "You need to be on my side. Your pack doesn't respectand that's where I need you to step in. I'm your mate, their Luna. You have to show them that if they're disrespectingthen they're disrespecting you". I hadn't been fulfilling my duty and maybe that's one of the reason they didn't respect me. No more, I've had enough of being treated like the outsider.

"They respect you". He frowned.

Lifting my head from his chest I raised my eyebrows. "They don't and the reason they don't is because their Alpha doesn't". I wasn't sure ifsaying that was going to set him off. He may say he's changed but I knew that temper was still in there. "I have always respected you Leah, I just didn't show it but that's all going to change".

"Yeah?".

"It took forto leave and distance myself from you to actually see how I'd been acting. I wasn't a good mate, I was an even worse Alpha. I had to change, I had to see the bigger picture". "And what's the bigger picture?".

"You". He whispered. "I need you by I my side to makebetter. I need you to help run our pack. I can't do it without you. You are the other half ofand I'm so sorry that I had to leave you to figure that out".

"It wasn't all your fault. My head was рестра messed up. I wasn't fully in this but I'm willing to be Teach me, help me. Letstand beside you, we're stronger together than we are apart". "Things are going to change babe, you'll see". He kissed my forehead just as the door to the room flew open.

Alanna, Lacey and Lana all fell into the room.

A laugh fell from my lips. "I thought this room was locked?". I asked.

"It was". He scowled. "But she knows the code".

"Sorry, sorry, we didn't-.... are you back together?". Alanna asked.

"Out". He growled.

All three girls scrambled to their feet running back out the door they fell through.

"That was funny". I grinned.

"Babe?".

"Yeah?".

"Why the fuck aren't you wearing a bra?".