My Servant System

Chapter 748 747: Introspective

Kat PoV

Standing beside the carriages, I looked at Jahi before turning my gaze back towards the other carriage that would accompany us, its occupants standing together and nodding as they listened to their respective Clan Heads, accepting their orders and warnings with equal attention.

My eyes lingered on the cocky, disrespectful red skinned Demoness who I felt like deserved to have more done to her than just a singular beating, hence why I threatened to permanently ruin her hand yesterday should she make another move on Jahi.

I disliked her very much, and yet now Jahi seemingly was covering for her... though I knew in my soul that I was being illogical towards her; it was just... the first time that I saw someone actively going after Jahi in such an open and uncaring manner for the rest of us, disregarding us three fiancees and trying to snatch our wife right in front of us.

It infuriated me, and I wanted to hurt the woman who dared to act so unscrupulously, and yet... Jahi told me not to, which I could understand, but I wasn't in the mood to understand! 

I wanted to hurt her, to break her and make her understand that she wasn't allowed to do that, even if I knew it wasn't beneficial in the long run...

That didn't mean that I wasn't going to continue glaring at her, though Jahi had tried to make it abundantly clear that I needed to rein this in lest it affect whatever we did in the future, and to become accustomed to this; as we grew stronger and older, we would likely meet more people who acted idiotically like Satanya, or who believed themselves to be so great that they deserved to be married to Jahi or have Jahi marry them.

The idea only made me feel worse, but Jahi continued to show me her 'devotion' when she returned last night in a good mood, telling me in passing about how excited she was to try and get this interesting golem thing from Lady Hathor to train against, whilst also recounting how it made her exert herself in such an incredible way...

All while she tried her hardest to exert us both as well, using me like an outlet for her stress and a way to release her pent up energy instead of as a lover... which was exactly what I loved about her and exactly what I wanted from her.

"Alright, I guess that's it! You all be safe out there, alright? You're just traveling over to Nogart and surveying the lands along the way. No unnecessary fights or risks. Scouting only; if something pops up, make your way back instantly and head back out with reinforcements. Heroics get you killed..."

Belian looked at us all sternly, before nodding his head and smirking as he added "But, if it seems manageable and winnable, go ahead. Just be careful and survey everything before making a move. Information is far more powerful when used correctly, and lacking it can easily lead to an early grave. So... get going. We'll see you by the weeks end, hopefully."

He took a step back and snaked his arm around the Madam's waist, ignoring her narrowed gaze as she tried to maintain a dignified appearance, though no one particularly paid her any mind as Satanya saluted her Clan Head and turned, gesturing towards the carriages as she shouted "Let's get going then! We'll make it to the city of Huran in two hours, maybe three depending on the mountain passes. That'll be our first stop!"

My fur bristled slightly at the red skinned Demoness' efforts to take control of the entire group, only for me to let out a quiet huff as I felt the warning pulse through my Soul Bond, Jahi reminding me 'gently' that this was Satanya's expedition to lead; we were just accompanying them as reinforcements, and as such we didn't have the right to order her around.

So, I climbed into the carriage first, taking my seat near the window and frowning softly as the others got in after me, my desire to further 'mark' Jahi as mine and firmly display my 'territory' welling up once more...

It was something that made me wonder why I felt this... peeved about everything; was it truly because this was the first time someone had been so forwards about their desires with us?

After all, our only peer who ever had any sort of obvious and arrogant desire was Jillian, and well... she turned out one way that none of us expected right off the bat.

Everyone else gave us a wide berth, and we generally stuck to ourselves otherwise; perhaps these years of being socially - and willingly - 'outcasted' as not only a Noble but also as a group affected me more than I had realized?

Or perhaps... the Soul Bond was just simply that strong, but I hadn't noticed it thanks to the lack of any real 'threats' to our polycule?

Then there was the simple answer that... I was just... that obsessive with Jahi now, after having 'lost' her once before... having 'lost' all of them once before.

It was a certain possibility, and since my everything was tied to them - my lust, my future, my life, my strength, my potential, my love - this sudden encroachment was certainly... jarring.

Perhaps we all were like that, but my own LIFE being tied to Jahi's, my System being aided by their continued support, love and care... perhaps it was too much for me to handle; too much for this current me to handle.

Someone who hadn't experienced any 'threats' on this lifestyle whilst still being apart of it; I've been taken from it before, but never here to experience threats coming at us whilst we were still together...

Was this what Anput and Leone had felt when they had caught Jahi almost slipping back during the Crusade?

This... This intense desire to make their mark on Jahi known to the world, to dissuade others from trying to take her from them?

The want - no, the NEED to remind Jahi that she needn't ever look anywhere else for anything, that we were all she ever needed; just like she was all we ever needed?

As I settled into the carriage, I couldn't help but think on it as we made our way towards Huran, knowing that I needed this quiet time to inspect my own mentality and correct it where it needed to be corrected, lest it cause us problems on this excursions.

I... still wanted to kill Satanya though.