Perfect Avatar

Chapter 58: Lilith

"Who needs to cry when you can sleep?"This is our motto at the orphanage. We can barely eat enough, but at least we do it together so it's fun. My friends often make fun of me because I'm smaller than everyone else, and well, it's not my fault I can't drink milk every year! And water with rice doesn't work either, so what can I do? I punch everyone who makes fun of me, when they are on the ground, they look smaller than me.

I'm a little proud of my strength, I may be the sho... The least gifted in the orphanage, but I'm the strongest. When we help set the table for the Queen's Festival, I always help Madam Director, I can lift a table by myself, and I do it in front of everyone to show what awaits them if they provoke me. But maybe I overdid it since they refused to let me join their gang. Their loss, I'm going to create my own team with shor... Not gifted people!

We had several foster parents visit us, and I was so confused, I was trying to act like a good girl, I washed my hair and I didn't play in the mud that day, I hoped someone would finally take me!

I don't know if it's good or bad, but they only asked me to put my hand on a balloon and it lit up a little. They looked happy and said I had a future, but the director looked a little scared and Madame Corine told me not to fight anymore. Everyone looks at me like a monster, I shouldn't have hit them...

They asked me to go on an adventure with Sana, the director's favorite child, I don't know her but I heard she was the best girl. What does that mean? Oh wait, she was the one who was the princess when we played heroes and monsters, I didn't remember that because I'm always the monster and monsters don't save princesses. But she seems nice... Hm, wasn't she very tactile with boys?

We traveled from village to village, but no one wanted to give us a chance to join them, they were more interested in flirting with Sana, I don't understand why she didn't just send them flying, they rejected us after all. But one group told us there was a duo of a hero and an avatar who looked like night and day and were recruiting people. Finally hope! I'm about to become the scariest monster in the world.

We met in a bar in a small village, Sofiya, the leader is a bit of a weird guy, he talks like the other boys in the orphanage, also the boys from some teams we saw... all the boys in do. We're supposed to wait for the other member, Leon said he was trouble, looks like I'm going to have more fun.

We started doing raids and it was a bit awkward. The monsters are scary and move too fast, I couldn't land a single hit. Leon carried us but I won't let that happen again.

Weeks have passed and it's only getting worse, I can't hit any monsters. Everyone has a role, but I'm the only one who doesn't have feats. I'm starting to feel useless... I never thought that eating with my friends would be the most painful moment of my life.

"You don't need to be stronger, I'll protect you all." You're nice Leon, but I want to fight too, I want to be a monster like at the orphanage...

"What's the point of hitting harder if you can't hit anything?"

Anesidora told me this when I was training in secret.

"What? I'm a warrior, warriors hit hard."

"Yeah, but you never touch any living thing. I saw you hit a dead boar out of frustration."

"It... It wasn't frustration! Mind your own business ! How dare you... I try my best and he laughs at me.

"Dexterity or precision, I don't remember."

"Are you finished? Do you have anything else to blame me for?"

"I'm not blaming you, I'm saying if you want to be more specific, use these two elemental stones."

"What? Use? But they have to be sold, right? Leon said that!"

"Yes, and he also said that you don't need to get stronger, so take his advice if you want to keep whining."

How... How dare you!!? I knew I could do this but no one said anything, how would I know? And Leon still keeps the stones... Maybe I can steal some? Like the bread at the orphanage... Huh?

"Here, I have these 3 stones in my pocket, as an emergency bonus. Use them."

"... Huh?... You're... Are you giving them to... to me?"

I do not understand why. Why would he do that? You have to be special to receive gifts, right? That's why Sana always had them at the orphanage. Why are you giving them to me?

"What? You don't know how to assimilate them?"

"N-No!... I... But why? You don't need it?" The last time we raided was two days ago, how do you still have stones? Maybe... Maybe he saved them for... for me?

"You look like a penguin playing with a hammer, a baby penguin to be physically precise, I'll be killed if I keep laughing in the rifts."

My God... Give me the power not to miss the blow I am about to give him.

I hit him with all my strength, I know I hit him, there's a wall behind him, he didn't go... Huh?

I look above and he's standing on the wall, how did he get there?!

"Hm, good move, but next time try with something like a rock, if it doesn't move you'll hit it, right?"

"C-Come back here!"

"Sorry, I can't hear you from up there~"

I tried to jump and reach him, but the people who built this wall, were they angry or something?

"304 centimeters, you have to do at least better than that."

Okay, I hate this guy. He continued to test me in the morning but eventually bought me lunch as an apology, I forgive him for now.

We talked a bit about my power, apparently, it's a mistake to focus on pure strength, I need higher speed, responsiveness, reflex, and too many words that I never heard in my life. What does it mean to infuse energy? I don't know if he's making fun of me but I'll just pretend to understand.

A few weeks have passed and everything is perfect! I was wrong about Dora, he's annoying but he's a good pal.

I like playing with him, Morgiana is nice but she is so serious and Marie is too shy, I asked her to talk more and she apologized. It's weird...

But the atmosphere is good, Leon is a little scary but I think Dora is like the leader in the shadows, so I feel safe.

Dora is like my friends at the orphanage, maybe better, at least he never hurts me and he gives me a lot of apolo-lunches.

Leon and Erick are getting very annoying. We went to a public bath and they tried to peak on us, even when we were bathing in a lake they faked a fight to break in. This is getting very annoying, at least Dora isn't like that, he doesn't care about that kind of thing.

Marie and I often ask him to join us in our bath to keep watch, he agreed on the condition that he called me Lil Lith... I wonder what that means.

Something strange happened, Sana said she was dating Dora. It's weird, it's so weird... I thought Dora wasn't interested in stuff like that.

I'm a little annoyed that we can't spend as much time alone as before, Sana has a sharp tongue and she doesn't want us near him. He's also my friend!

Things are getting worse, Dora is playing with me again but... He seems very distant now. Leon said we should replace him... What nonsense is this? Dora is the reason everyone is doing so well, he helped me, Marie, and Morgiana, why should we kick him out? If it's not passionate enough, I'll knock some sense into him, but don't take him away!

Sana is really horrible... I saw her talking with Leon and they hugged often... It's not a normal friendship, you told me to stay away from Dora, why are you doing this now?!

Everyone in the village says that Dora cheated on her with Marie, but that's impossible... Marie told us what happened and it was so Dora. Who said that? Why is he so fine with this?

Leon recruited a new member, Liliana. She's a little older than me and she seems nice, but he said she would replace Dora.

I opposed it and even Morgiana asked to at least let him fight for his place.

Dora is strong, I know he can do it, he has to do it... You never get angry even though I'm a boring person, I need you around...

Life is so cruel... when I was younger, I was separated from my friends at the orphanage, I don't even remember the name to return there, and now I lost the only one who paid attention to me. I hate it, I hate it so much... why didn't you fight? I wish I never left the orphanage.

Life is full of surprises and always plays with me.

We met Dora on the way out, and he said he was going to get serious, he even sent Leon and Erick flying... But why Morgiana? If she didn't talk to you before, it's because she just doesn't like boys, boys like Leon and Erick, but she respects you.

Anyway, I'm glad he's back, but man, I wanted to go on an adventure with you...

My other problem now is Sana, she's a little too happy to see him, I may not know how to read, but I'm mature enough now to know what they call people like her, beach! I heard they're the worst people, so I better watch out for her.

Things are a little bad, Leon is wasting our money on gifts, we told him it was useless but he wants to show his big heart, with our money, which he didn't really contribute to since he is less and less good in battle.

Marie tried to contact Dora but apparently, this magical device is broken so we can't. It's a big problem.

Leon is scarier than before too, he always yells at us in the rifts, he is angry with Sana so I told her to play the role of girlfriend and calm him down.

She's been very happy lately, so I have a bad feeling.

Life is full of emotions and when you work hard, you are rewarded. Dora is back! I was so surprised that I forgot to hit him, but I didn't care, we went into a rift and it was amazing...in the end.

I was so scared but he saved me and the others and beat all the monsters, I knew he was strong but wow, now I'm proud to say you were my teacher.

We met many new friends who knew him. Zuri is so funny, I like seeing her freak out when Morgiana is happy, Mercy is nice too, she's a noble but she talks like a friend. Freya is a bit annoying honestly, but now that my teacher is back, wait, I'm going to become the monster I've always dreamed of!

I don't really care about anything else anymore, Dora is like medicine, since his return, life has been wonderful. We are finally experiencing the adventure I dreamed of, I wish it would last forever.