QT: Against My Will

167 3.18.72 – Kuro – Downfall of Humanity

‘Now, when I think about it, I hope Fu Lian won’t die from childbirth. ?’

Wearing thick winter clothes, Bing Shi’s teeth chattered from the cold weather. She thought about this particular problem as she walked towards Yi Zen’s office.

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Inside Yi Zen’s office...

“Stop him from coming here,” Yi Zen said while pinching his brows. He had other problems besides fighting that crazy man, “I’ll kill him if this continues.”

“I don’t know how,” Bing Shi turned around, ready to leave, “What if he kills you? Are you going to leave your baby without a father?”

“What do you want?” Yi Zen was not confident that he’d be able to take Ren Han down. Both of them were holding back because of his little sister.

Bing Shi stopped, “Nothing. Who are you taking me for? I’ll see what I can do.” Leaving the office, she went inside her tent and called Ziek.

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Somewhere in a foreign city...

Ziek walked out of the bathroom, falling on the bed in exhaustion, he turned on his phone to see any missed calls.

Bing Shi, waiting for his call, picked up immediately, “Missed me?”

Ziek’s heart thumped when he heard Bing Shi’s real voice, “I missed you so much that it hurts.”

“Is that why you forced me to contact you?” Bing Shi inquired, “Yi Zen has been complaining about you, flirting with Fu Lian.”

“It’s Yi Zen who forced you, not me,” said Ziek innocently, “Can I continue with my flirting?”

“You don’t have to ask me, really. You can flirt with whoever you want. It’s a good confidence boost,” Bing Shi nodded her head, “But only if your target likes it. Did Fu Lian like it?”

“She threw a few knives at me,” Ziek acted dumb, “I think she liked it to death.”

“Stop acting like my ex,” Bing Shi chuckled, “Are you going to stop pestering Fu Lian?”

Ziek’s lips revealed a devilish smile, making a deal with her, “Only if I can switch my target to you.”

“OK,” Bing Shi giggled. As expected of him. Give him an inch, and he’d take a mile. It wasn’t like she was any different. One would notice their similar smiles, “Steel up your heart, young boy.”

Ah, Ziek took a deep breath. Her giggles were lethal. “Did you miss me?”

Bing Shi’s voice lowered into a whisper, her smile weakening, “Do you want to hear a truth or a lie?”

Ziek was afraid of both; he closed his eyes in nervousness, “Surprise me.”

In truth, besides luring Bing Shi out, there was another purpose behind his actions. Fu Lian and Yi Zen seemed to be this world’s main leads. Bing Shi didn’t seem to mind him trashing Yi Zen around. If someone guessed that Ziek was attempting to catch HQ’s attention, then... that someone guessed correctly.

“I didn’t miss you,” Bing Shi answered gently, “Happy?”

Ziek shut his eyes close, to prevent himself from crying. The rejection hurt so much that he wanted to disappear, “No. I feel like dying.”

“Fine with me,” Bing Shi looked straight in front of her, shutting down her heart, “Offer your place, to you know who.”

“Never,” Ziek clutched his chest, curling up in the bed, tears fell down his eyes, showing off his vulnerable side, “It’s fucking confusing. Sometimes I can’t tell if my actions are his or mine.”

“As long as you curse, you’ll know that it’s you. Ok?”

“Ok...Fuck.”

“Good boy,” Bing Shi listened to the sobbing sound on the other side and waited until he calmed down. Her sad smile never disappeared. Such a strong boy. Fighting and growing up by himself, forced to mature fast, “Do you hate knowing about your past life? I wasn’t such a kind girl, was I? Not allowing him to meet me for five years.”

Ziek wanted to switch his place with his past life so much. But would he fall in love with the young Bing Shi? Without his past life, she wouldn’t become the Bing Shi today.

Ziek marveled at how Bing Shi had his emotions under her grasp. Just a moment ago, he wanted to die, and now? Like a calm lake, he felt in peace. “I don’t hate it,” his crying stopped, “You are absurd.” He found it strange that despite having a girlfriend, his past life never met up with her. So it was her doing?

“I’m glad you understand,” the smiling Bing Shi walked towards her desk and switched on her laptop, “I still have to work on the blueprints. Bye-Bye.”

No. So soon? Ziek, alarmed, spewed out the first thing which came upon his mind, “Can you keep the call going? I promise I won’t interrupt you.” Stupid! He wanted to bang his head against the wall!

“Um...Ok,” Bing Shi put the phone on her desk and started to work.

“Huh?” She. Agreed? Ziek rushed to the bathroom to clean his face, returning, he put his phone on the pillow and listened to the sound of her typing, clicking and occasional coughing with a relaxed smile. Sometimes she would check if he was still there. No wonder his past life waited that long to cuddle her. Each little action of Bing Shi was enough to make him feel less lonely.

Ziek had no idea how she was doing it. Similar to his past life, it wasn’t Bing Shi who was being pushy, but him. He craved her attention; her affection; her love; everything. He clutched his heart protectively. It’s repeatedly being snatched away against his will.

[Host, mealtime.]

“Grandson?” Bing Shi called out in a whisper.

“...Mm...”

‘He must be sleeping.’

Hearing a drowsy mumble, Bing Shi kept the call going and left to heat up her meal.

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The next day, inside Yi Zen’s office...

Despite wearing thick winter wear with many layers underneath, Bing Shi felt frostbite getting into her gloves and boots.

Yi Zen was unable to calm down, “What did you do?!”

“I sold myself,” Bing Shi tried to move her limbs from the ice, unsuccessfully. Her teeth were chattering, “C-cool it u-up. I’m f-freezing.”