Too Much to Bear My Love

Chapter 249 Waning Affection

Amelia’s mood had lightened after she formed an agreement with Kurt. She spent a few moments

playing with Tony in the nursery before the door was pushed open.

Immediately, Amelia and Kurt whirled around. Upon noticing the man who had walked in, Kurt moved

away to put some distance between him and Amelia.

A dark look crossed Oscar’s gaze when he noticed Amelia and Kurt together. However, it vanished as

quickly as it came.

The man strode into the room with broad steps and stopped in front of Amelia. “When did you return?”

he asked with a tender gaze.

“I returned not long ago to visit Tony. I haven’t seen him for an entire afternoon, so I missed him very

much,” Amelia replied as she glanced at her husband.

“Tony, Daddy is here,” Oscar murmured as he bent down to kiss the boy’s forehead.

Tony, who was originally cheerful, curled his lips into a pout. He burst into tears the moment he caught

sight of Oscar.

A look of distress painted Oscar’s face when his son began to cry. I can’t believe my son is

embarrassing me like this!

Kurt stepped forward and cradled Tony in his embrace. It must be due to Tony’s liking towards Kurt, or

the fact that the man had an honest and kind heart because Tony ceased crying immediately. The only

trace of his earlier outburst was the tears that stained his cheeks.

Tony’s behavior caused varying thoughts to surface in the trio’s minds.

Afraid that Oscar would leap to assumptions, Kurt offered a hasty explanation, saying, “Mr. Clinton,

Tony must have been confused by your scent. You shouldn’t take his behavior to heart.”

Oscar’s mood darkened when he heard the bodyguard’s explanation.

Although Kurt and Tony had not interacted a lot, they looked like father and son. I can’t believe my son

prefers another man over his own father. Oscar felt an uneasy feeling in his heart. At the same time, he

couldn’t place a finger on the complicated emotion that he was feeling. Nevertheless, Oscar was

troubled.

Abruptly, the man changed the topic. “Make sure you take good care of Tony.”

With that, he turned around and left.

“Kurt, can you look after Tony?” Amelia hurriedly asked as she was afraid that Oscar would brood over

this matter. “I’ll go and check on him.”

Kurt nodded his head in acknowledgement.

Following that, Amelia strode out of the nursery.

The sight of Oscar standing by the bedroom window caused Amelia’s heart to ache. It seems like our

marriage will experience more ups and downs. Despite admitting our feelings, there are still countless

obstacles that put a strain on our relationship.

I thought I was stronger than this. Yet, I can’t bear to let Oscar see any of my imperfections. The

thought of Oscar possibly losing his patience when he found out about her vision caused Amelia to halt

in her tracks.

What if Oscar decides that he doesn’t want me anymore? Amelia felt like an invisible hand was

squeezing her heart. Agony filled her when she imagined her husband displaying his disdain towards

her.

Her overwhelming love for him caused her to fear the day when he might abandon her because of her

imperfections. After all, I’m only Oscar’s wife on paper. Aside from that, we have no other relations.

Rather than revealing my flaws, I would prefer it if I could leave him whilst he still sees me as a perfect

figure. That way, I can leave a good impression on him forever.

All in all, I’m nothing but a coward. In the face of adversity, I chose to cower away instead. I still can’t

accept Oscar’s love for me. I’m afraid that he might just be taking pity on me; perhaps his love isn’t

genuine. Thus, I can’t bring myself to tell Oscar that I might be going blind. In fact, there’s a chance that

the blood clot in my brain will cause me to lose my life. I really am nothing but a coward! Oscar might

be feeling sympathetic for me instead of this so-called love. Besides, everyone has seen how he

neglected me throughout our five years of marriage. I can’t believe the fact that Oscar has fallen for me

in such a short period. In other words, I can’t guarantee that he might still care for me if I lose my

vision.

Oscar is the perfect package. He will be able to win the heart of any woman he chooses. I’ll be useless

to him if I become blind.

Even before she had lost her vision, Amelia was already trapped in a vicious cycle of self-belittlement.

The more she thought about it, the more it began to fester and grow in her heart. Despite her struggles

to break free from it, she couldn’t escape its grasps.

Amid her sorrow, she looked at Oscar’s back with a look filled with anguish. “Are you done staring?

How long are you going to stand there for?” the man asked all of a sudden.

Amelia snapped out of her daze and hid the sadness in her gaze before she approached Oscar.

Oscar turned around and looked at the woman as she walked over.

“Were you angry that Tony is close with Kurt?” Amelia asked slowly and casually.

Oscar remained silent as he looked at her stoically.

Amelia forced herself to smile reluctantly before asking, “Were you genuinely angry?”

“I was a little jealous,” Oscar admitted sincerely with a nod. “After all, no man would be happy to see

his son close with another man.”

Amelia couldn’t stop the giggle that escaped her lips. “You were the one who assigned Kurt to protect

me. Now that you are jealous of him, aren’t you afraid that the others might see you as a petty person?”

she teased.

Oscar wrapped his hands around Amelia’s waist to pull her closer and changed the subject.

“Where did you and Tiffany go today?” Oscar asked as he lowered his head to the side of her face.

The feeling of his warm breath against her ear and his close proximity caused Amelia’s ears to flush

crimson red.

Her adorable reaction caused Oscar to chuckle. Nothing amuses me more than her genuine reactions.

“Your ears have turned all red. How cute.” Oscar touched her ears as he laughed softly.

At that, Amelia blushed harder. Yet, there was still a part of her that was wary of Oscar’s touch.

Despite her constant wariness to maintain a distance between the two of them, she found all of her

inhibitions crumbling to dust whenever Oscar approached her.

“Oscar, stop it.” Amelia braced her hands against his chest in an attempt to stop him.

Immediately, Oscar picked up on her strange behavior. A dark look crossed his face. “Are you afraid of

me?” he asked in a baritone voice.

Upon hearing that, the woman stiffened and raised her head to meet his eyes. When they locked

gazes, Amelia’s gaze softened. “Why would I be afraid of you?” she asked with a tender smile.

With a low voice, Oscar repeated his question to her, “Amelia, what did you and Tiffany do today?”

His question caused Amelia to avert her gaze away from his dark eyes that resembled a starless night

sky. It feels like he will unearth my lies with a single glance. I’m at a loss for words right now.

All of a sudden, Amelia recalled the advice that Tiffany had offered her. Under Oscar’s intense scrutiny,

Amelia decided to seize the opportunity presented to her. Who cares if I succeed or not? I’ll ask him

right now!

Amelia clenched her jaw in determination as she made up her mind. “Oscar, would you still treat me

this way if I’m no longer perfect?”

Oscar frowned and did not answer her question right away.

His hesitance felt like a knife stab to her heart.

Amelia’s smile became forced as she let out an awkward laugh. “I’m going to the washroom. I just

realized I haven’t washed my hands for the entire day.”

Oscar remained silent as he observed Amelia’s panicked movements. In reality, he wanted to see how

much of her insecurity she was hiding from him.

This silly woman assumed that my feelings for her are fleeting because I did not answer. Why would I

treat her this way if I didn’t love her? Why can’t she see something so blatantly obvious? Everyone

knows I’m head over heels for her; she is the only one oblivious to my feelings. Does she think that I’m

unreliable?

Oscar caught her chin in his face and tilted her face up to look at him. “Amelia, look at me. Are you so

dense that I have to tell your everything I’m feeling? Even if the sky falls on you, you have nothing to

fear as long as I’m by your side. Stop keeping everything bottled up, and don’t try to suffer through your

problems alone. Although your stubbornness has made caused me some trouble, I’ll never stop

protecting you. Yet, you still chose to go through your battles all alone. Amelia, what should I do with

you?” There was a slight waver in his voice. Oscar pulled her into a hug while he spoke.

Amelia was stunned. After all, she hadn’t expected Oscar to cry. Additionally, I didn’t know he was so

adversely affected by my outing with Tiffany.

“I-” Amelia stammered. She could not seem to muster a coherent response.

A profound look flashed across the man’s eyes. “Amelia, we are a married couple. You should try

relying on me more often.” Oscar heaved out a heavy sigh after speaking, seemingly disheartened

greatly.

Just as Amelia opened her mouth to reply, she was interrupted by the sound of knocking. The sudden

interruption caused all of her earlier courage to vanish into thin air.

“Who is it?” Oscar snapped in a brusque tone.

“Mr. Clinton, Mrs. Clinton has asked for your presence at the hospital. She said she couldn’t contact

your phone,” the maid called out carefully.

“Alright,” Oscar replied as his brows furrowed in impatience.

Even after the maid left, Oscar did not let go of Amelia. “Amelia, now that it’s the two of us again. Can

you tell me now?”

Amelia squirmed out of his arms. “Mom has called you. You should get there as soon as possible,” she

mumbled, avoiding his question.

Oscar pursed his lips in annoyance as he looked at her.

Amelia reached out her hand to caress his cheek before saying, “There’s no need to rush. We have an

eternity together. I’ll tell you what you want to know later, alright?” she said affectionately.

Oscar wrapped his arm around her waist as he bent down to kiss her passionately. “I’ll let you go this

time then,” he murmured after they broke apart from the kiss.

When Oscar grabbed his suit and prepared to leave, Amelia called out all of a sudden. “Oscar, there

was something I forgot to mention. I’ve asked Kurt to be Tony’s Godfather.”

Oscar’s movements came to a screeching halt, and he asked her nonchalantly, “Why did you ask him?”

“I think Kurt and Tony have a special affinity with each other. Thus, I asked him to be Tony’s Godfather.

You won’t be mad, right?”

Of course, I’ll be mad.

In spite of his anger, Oscar’s answer was the exact opposite. “I’m fine with anything you arrange. But

you shouldn’t talk to Kurt too much. Don’t forget that you are my woman, alright? You should keep your

distance from other men when I’m not around.”

Amelia merely smiled; she was at a loss for words. I didn’t expect Oscar to get so jealous. Yet, the

worst part is that I’m kinda enjoying his possessiveness.

Her smile was like an antidote to Oscar’s bad mood. All of his frustrations vanished when he saw her

bright smile. “Stay at home. I’ll be back soon,” he instructed her.

Amelia nodded, and the man left.

After Oscar’s departure, the smile on her face faded away. There was an uneasy feeling in her chest. It

feels like these peaceful moments will become scarce in the future.