Villain of my own novel



Seo Hana knew he wasn't obliged to protect them, not even look after them, but...but....but....

"He... could have...." Hana muttered under her breath, sobbing and trembling.

He had an option to protect them yet he chose not to, or so she understood, it was also the reason it, her heart and mind, hurt so much, her heart was clenching as painful hiccups marred her throat, she was in such a pitiful state that even those around her felt saddened, and Katline's eyes that were devoid of tears, welled up in tears as she crawled towards, now, limbless Hana, hugged her tightly and sobbed on her shoulder, while trembling together with her.

Hana had her arms only above her elbow, it was same with her legs which were above her knees.

Seo Hana was hurt even more even she realised and understood that she could now do nothing but blame Eshwar, who wasn't even there, because he wasn't there when she, no, they needed him.

[I can give you strength to stand on your own feet.] It was then, a voice, she wanted yet didn't want to hear at the same, sounded in her consciousness.

A voice devoid of any emotion, that was what she felt upon hearing his voice. She wanted to see him right this instance, hug him and cry on his shoulders, but

At the same time,

She wanted none of those.

She wasn't ashamed to admit that she hadn't been able to move on from him, and even though it wasn't something to be ashamed about, she felt that way.

If he was in front of right now, she would have done everything and anything to reach out for him and would have cried like a kid in his arms, no, not like a kid, but as a woman who loved him and also as a woman who wanted to feel his warmth for herself.

She yearned for him, but she despised him the most, and she was even more distrusted when she heard those words of his in her consciousness.

She felt myriads of emotions as the seconds passed by.

And by the end of it,

"Ha... hahaha... hahahaha...." Her laughter resounded throughout the room.

'You want to grant me power? Power to stand by myself? Hahaha, I am asking you why you didn't protect them, but you want to grant me powers? Now? For what? So that I have enough strength to kill myself? Hahahaha.... I can't believe I ever loved a person like you!' She muttered in her mind, her gaze head turned hazy as madness began to cloud her mind.

"Hahahaha, you know what? Fine! Fine, I accept your offer! What do you want in exchange? Do you want me to become your slave, and suck your d**k? Huh? What do you want from me!? You had just left me alone without dating me, wouldn't I have been able to live a better life? Hahahaha, yeah, yeah, I understand now....

But, wait, what "am I" asking, no, yelling at you and what are "you" taking about? Do you think our words and thoughts match? What I want right now isn't your f**king power, but those lives that you ignored! Bring them back for me!! Please, please.....

Please....just....please...

Please, being them back...." Seo Hana wailed, hiccupping.

"Hahahaha... What am I even asking you for? If you wanted to bring them back, you would have protected them before something like that even happened to them.... Hahahaha...."

"You know what? I regret loving you! Yea...yeah, I regret ever loving you, oh my, oh my, how pitiful Isha must've been to have loved someone like you, poor woman, I can't even imagine how much she must be despairing, hahahaha....!! I hope she leaves you, and I also hope that you will be alone, lonely for life! I hope you live all of your life without anybody ever loving you!!!"

[Pfft....]

"....." Hana turned silent.

She was sure, a 100% sure, that she just heard a chuckle, an infuriating chuckle escaped from his mouth, whom she was cursing at with all her being,

A chuckle....

That was what she received for all her cursing.

She was sure that he deliberately made it so that she would hear his chuckle, if he didn't want her to hear that, he could have done so. He was too strong, so strong that a mere thought was enough to make it so that she wouldn't hear his chuckle, yet she heard it, quite clearly actually. She heard his laughter in response to her curses.

It was then a thought struck her consciousness like a lightning bolt,

He was strong. Strong enough to kill her with a mere snap of his, maybe even that was excessive, but why had he been hearing to her curses? She....

Her pathetic laughter and unsightly behaviour ceased, with one her sobs continuing to sound in the room, shadowing over the hiccups and moist breaths of those around her.

"Please, help me, Eshwar...." Hana asked properly this time.

'I take back everything I just spoke....' She muttered in her mind, she wasn't thinking like that because he was hearing, but she genuinely felt so wrong and so bad for muttered out those words, which were so unlike her, and with that thought, her clouded mind regained its clarity and her hazy gaze lit up with a hint of vigour in them.

[I will grant you enough strength, so that you will stand on your own feet....] He said, and by the next instance Hana felt something burning deep within herself, it felt like a blazing hot flame right before it died out, but Seo Hana didn't resist whatever was happening and accepted whole heartedly, because her instincts screamed at her that whatever was happening to her, she needed that, desperately.

Her phoenix trait that had been itched deep within her very existence was being brought out, bright back to life, upon success, they were going to witness the birth of a phoenix, a half-phoenix to be precise, but a phoenix nonetheless.

Though none except for Eshwar himself knew about how strong a half-phoenix could be. A phoenix was a righteous and good Godly beast, if so then what about an Halfling? It was an agathokakological being, with agathokakological's meaning being: a composition of both good and evil.

While such a phenomenon was taking place within Seo Hana, she was feeling dolorous, yet elated.

Her mixed emotions were getting more and more annoying to be described in proper words, but wasn't in a state where she would care, because ever since her awakening back on Earth, this was first time she was feeling so....

Complete.

Her body slightly darkened as her resistance against the elements increased unnaturally, her limbs which were amputated felt warm, while softened ends felt warmer, until she felt hotter, but soon she felt as if her limbs were melting, but she didn't care, she just felt so complete. A empty feeling, which she never mentioned elsewhere nor did she feel that she would ever be able to feel whole, but

She was feeling it now, at that very moment.

Unbeknownst to her, her amputated limbs were growing, but just not physically(?), her phoenix flames were roaring out of the softened ends of her limbs, forming new limbs from them, as the pair of her wings had already protruded out as they covered her whole.

Her flames formed clawed arms and legs, but the heat that one would have expected for her new limbs to exclude was felt nowhere, Katline's poking fingers had passed through Hana's new limbs as if they didn't even exist, but the most surprising fact of them all was the fact that they didn't feel hot, not even when there hands were in her new flaming limbs.

Hana gradually opened her eyes and gazed around herself in disbelief and pushed her ethereal limbs through Katline's body, back and forth, gazing at the unbelievable phenomenon in disbelief, and after a few minutes, Seo Hana learned that if she didn't have the intent, her limbs would act like they didn't even exist in the first place, similar to her mind sending signals to her limbs which would move as she intended to.

After calming down, Hana's elation died down but her dolorous remained.

She then began to sob aloud, not even bothering to thank Eshwar, who granted her the privilege of standing back on her own feet.

Later, she together with Katline, spoke to the Freaks, who had appeared out of nowhere, and understood that the Freaks had only come there when they saw the dense burnt, black cloud raising from the ground, they were hear to rescue any survivors, but hadn't expected to learn about so many things.

The Freaks had been briefed on the prototypes, alliance, suspicions, and why Hana called out at Eshwar and what he had to do with whatever was happening and why did Seo Hana yell at him.

"I know that I don't have any say in this matter, but I want to state something that's a bit too obvious. Hana, Eshwar is a God, a goddamn God, and not your friendly neighbourhood but*h, who'll give you everything, just because you asked for!" Arngrim stated after hearing Hana's explanation.

'A God....' Seo Hana repeated inwardly, feeling fearful now that she thought about it.

"Anyway, Kat, what was the number of the prototype you just described?" Grace asked as she looked at Katlinez who stood next to her.

"Prototype – Ace..."